Full transparency, deciding what to put in my “About Me” section was relatively overwhelming. I kept trying to think of something clever, endearing or relatable that I could put here.
But, I’d rather be raw.
idle hands had been a dream of mine to create, but I had put it on the back burner. Allowing myself to self sabotage with worrying about how successful and welcomed and understood my creations would be to the public.
Drawing, painting, creating had always been my silence. A space where my mind was free is what I mean by silence. Free from self infliction, from clashing, from emotion.
I could just be.
And I could get lost.
In a world where only my ideas were the standards. I could explain myself much better in my art than I could in person. It was a language I could communicate with.
And I wanted to turn this passion into a living. To make the opportunity for myself to live where I could be authentically me.
But of course, I was dragging my feet on bringing a dream to reality.
Fear has a way of making you think that living in a comfort zone is ok. Fear has a way of skewing your path. Well, I will no longer let fear dictate my actions.
Once I realized that my art, my work, my thought processes are not comparable, the fear subsided. And it took way too long, but now I truly believe that. My creations are my own. Someone will always draw better than me. Someone will always paint better than me. But no one will think like me, or envision what I do.
So here I am. Sharing with you. Something that embodies much more than “products”.
